Man...what a longg day its been. I hit like...freaken 4 malls just to get free stuff but it's not just any free stuff...it's free MAKEUP....that's what I thought. -___--- Anyway, there was a lawsuit about makeup sellers who were raising up the prices of the makeup products without permission from the company itself. Therefore, they are giving out about 175 million or billion dollars worth of makeup for free as compensation starting Janurary 20th until supplies last. But who would have thought that the supplies ran out TODAY already. ><  I wish I knew about it sooner yesterday because all the good stuff were all gone by the time I got there today. I wanted expensive perfume from Chanel, Dior, Calvin Klein, etc. or lotion or mascara but I ended up getting 3 moisturizer from clinque and this estee lauder night cream thing. >< My mom can have that. xDDDD The wait in line wasn't that bad. I expected a 20-30 minutes wait but it only took a max of maybe 5 minutes, even though the line was wayyyy long for some stores.

After hitting as much malls as possible, I went back home to hang out with UYEN, my friend from middle who I haven't hung out since like...ages. She heard about the free makeup thing and she wanted to hit South Coast but I told her that nothing would be left because when I went earlier....only Nordstorms had stuff and it was only ONE product. Instead, we went to Main Place hoping that there would still be stuff left over but there was NOTHING. DAMN PEOPLE....they're so fast!!!! So we just ended up walking around talking and shopping and I ended up buying stuff when I shouldn't be. -____--- I really need to stop shopping, it's burning a hole through my pocket and bank account and I end up being in a financial crisis when I least expect it. >< I realize that I apply philosophy to shopping. I tend to only get stuff when there's only 1 item of my size left. I see this as a sign that it was meant for me and that if I don't get it now, I will regret it later for walking away from that opportunity. I live my life revolving around this philosophy....this idea that there is a sign for everything and that everything happens for a reason. Therefore, I strive to take up all opportunities given to me but however, I have not been successful in doing so. -___--- I always let things pass by and I end up moping around due to its lost.

After shopping, we went back to her house and just sat around and talked in her room. I felt like I had such a goood and deep conversation with her, one that I haven't had in such a longgg time. Uyen's mindset is so similar to mine that we connect so easily! I realized that after talking with her how much I miss her. She's such a great person and I miss having her around. When she talks, all that comes out are wise words of advice and I felt like quoting everything that she says but all I can do it absorb it in awe. She mentioned how she connects with people who she feels as though they are there to listen to her and she says that whatever I say to her is something different and something that she's never heard of before. I truly feel the same way towards her. Like...the words that she says....I can totally connect with her and that's what I love so much about her. The stories that she tells me...the experiences that she goes through...just puts me in amazement. I can't help but get really emotional and teary because I feel as though whatever she's telling me only exists in movies and not in real life. It's just so great. And what's so great about her is that even though we haven't met or hung out for years...our friendship is not yet a bit awkward in any way. It's not like there's anything different between us and we're just filling in the missing gaps in our lives.  THATS THE COOL PART. And I realize that that's a true friendship right there and she will forever be a part of my life even though she's never there most of the time. But when she is...I value the time we spend hanging out because I get so much out of it. Man...I feel so lesbianic praising a close girl friend of mine. I feel like I'm describing a boyfriend or something. xDDDD I just want to say is....UYEN YOU'RE THE BEST AND I MISS YOU A LOT AND I HOPE THAT WE CAN KEEP IN TOUCH MORE OFTEN!!!! =] Buh byez *wavez*

Man...what a tiring and long day today. I woke up early and had to run errands for my parents and off to Phi's house I go to do our gay dry lab that's due tomorrow. I HATE THIS LAB...it's so freaken confusing/hard. The directions are sooo vague and unclear. >< I WILL FOREVER HATE YOU LAB. Anyway...after that, me and Phi went to school to meet up with our poetry teacher to discuss our papers. That took a while too since my teacher talks alot but it's not like those bullcrap talks but rather helpful talks. I like my poetry teacher, she actually wants to put out time to help us with our papers. I really thank her alot for that. She actually puts out her day off and time to meet with her students. Now that's what I call caring. Speaking of day off, my father pisses me off!!!! I came home and my father was all yelling at me for meeting with my teacher on a day off. He was like...why would you meet with your teacher on a day off and who would schedule a meeting on a day off. It's like...you're lucky that she even puts out the time to meet with you...let alone on a day off!!!!! Then he was like...why can't you choose a day when you have school? So I was like...because it conflicts with my schedule!!!!! My dad doesn't understand that it's college now and it's different from high school. Eff that, I'm gonna be a rebel and I do whatever I want. If I want to meet with my teacher on a day off, then I'll meet with my teacher. Man..that sounds so nerdy...xDDDD but YEAAA I WILL DO IT. Also, he got all mad at me for not calling the insurance company before I left. I told him that I couldn't find the damn papers because he put it somewhere and I would just get the number from him when he comes home from work, easy as that. But NOOOO...he starts bitching about how come I didn't call him when he was at work. Dude...you are working...and I call you...it's a bothersome. He makes such a big deal out of everything....he was saying how it's gonna be too late to call the insurance company when it was only 1 in the afternoon!!!!! -_____--- I DON'T UNDERSTAND HIM. He just takes things too wayy out of hand. My father really needs to relax and chill. It's times like these when I wish I could just....run away from everything and just put everything behind me and keep moving forward to somewhere far far away. I really want to just get away from everything...it's just too much for me to handle. =[

Anyway...after meeting with my teacher, we went back home and I hung out with Anh. We totally didn't know where to go so I ended up going to her house and hanging out there until we figured out something to do. Sooo after a long time looking through my gay list of phone numbers on my phone...Anh decided to hang out with my UCI friends. So I called up Lorenzo and we ended up going to Guppy's to eat. BUT MAN...on the way there...the sky was sooooo beautiful!!!!! There were red stripes zigzaging across the sky. I really wished I had my camera with me. There were sooo many nice pictures that I could have taken. Also, the moon for some strange reason....had a mysterious glow to it!!! O.O It was so pretty and mesmerizing!!! I feel like...the glow is caused either by pollution or fog. Which is really bad but whatever...it's still beautiful!!! xDDDD I really wanted to capture that image but no camera. x****[ The sky has been orangey/reddish for the past couple of days. How strange. It must be a sign....that the world is gonna end soon!!! JK xDDDD I don't know what the sign is...but it's something. Anyway....I ended up taking pictures of the moon very late into the night when I got home and it's wayyy too high up into the sky that it looks more like a star than a moon. There's still a glow to it though. I'm hoping that I can capture that image tomorrow. I have decided that I'm going to bring my camera everywhere I go now. You don't know what beautiful pictures you can capture while you're on the go. ^^ Anyway...that's all for now. Buh byez. *wavez*

I MISS MY LONG HAIR!!! *cries* x*****[ Sooooo...today I got a haircut and dyed my hair and got a hot oil treatment, which all came out to be 80 dollars. Which isn't that bad, considering just dyeing hair alone is like...70 dollars already. As for the cut, I think the top is fine but my ends are wayyy too short. I miss my long hair....now I can't hide behind my hair anymore. x****[ I feel so exposed. xDDDD I finally got a chance to fix my gay haircolor. I LOVE the new color. The lady chose it for me. She said, by the look of your face, I think a dark red/purple color would be nice on you. So she picked out black cherry for me which I ABSOLUTELY love. ^^ My hair looks normal inside but once you go outside, the color is sooo nice. ^^ I'm just still sad that it's ALOT shorter than I wanted it to be. But o well, hair grows back I guess. It will just have to take me a couple months before it reaches the length that I want. Now, I'm thinking of investing in some extensions while I wait for my hair to grow out.

Besides all of this, I have to say a few things because I think it's quite funny. First of all, I  DON'T GIVE A CRAP ABOUT YOU. YOU'RE NOT WORTH MY TIME AND I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT YOU AND YOUR DAMN LIFE SO STOP SAYING ALL THIS BULL CRAP ABOUT ME. I DON'T EFFEN CARE. AND IF YOU TRULY HATE ME THAT MUCH BECAUSE IT'S SOOOOO OBVIOUS THAT YOU DO THEN SAY IT TO MY DAMN FACE. You got some serious issues and I can't help but laugh at your stupid self. Stop lying to yourself and believe that everything revolves around you. Me and my friends, we don't give a crap about you. Stop thinking that we NEED you  because you are nothing to us and we can live perfectly damn fine without you. You are seriously FAKE and if you want to play this hate game then I will certainly play too. I like those who like me and I hate those who hate me. And apparently, there is only one person that I hate. So please do yourself a big favor and do a reality check.